Today I had to fight one of the constant battles I have to face. That battle is feeling inadequate. There are moments, tasks, and experiences that come my way that make feel like I am not up for the challenge. In those moments I feel like a fraud and a failure.
To be honest there are really only a few tasks that I feel totally comfortable and competent doing. Outside of those few things I feel very unprepared, ill equipped, and worthless. I wish I could spend my life writing, preaching, and teaching so I didn’t have to worry about anything else. But life isn’t like that. We have to do things that make us feel incompetent.
I need to keep in mind what John Ortberg wrote in If You Want to Walk on Water, You’ve Go to Get Out of the Boat:
“Sometimes, when your worst fears of inadequacy are confirmed and you discover that you really are out of your league, you experience the liberation of realizing that it is okay to be inadequate and that God wants his power to flow through your weakness.” (p. 139)
For God to use us it is more important that we have faith than talent. It is when we are at our weakest that God's strength shines the brightest in our lives. Remember, if God has called us to do something, then He will provide what we need to accomplish the task. Peter in 2 Peter 1:3 tells us that God gives us all that we need for life and godliness.
Consider God’s call of Moses. Moses did not feel adequate or equipped to face Pharaoh, but God made it clear that He would be with Moses. Yet, Moses still complained, and God further equipped Moses by sending Aaron along as the spokesman. God worked through both Moses and Aaron to accomplish His task.
If doing God's will was just about what we can accomplish on our own strength then there would be no reason for God to get any credit. God gets the most praise when He empowers us to do something we could never do on our own.
When we walk by faith in times of inadequacy the result will be a greater trust in God. As we experience God working through our lives it becomes easier for us to obey Him in other areas of our lives. This is especially needed when obedience in a particular area doesn’t make sense to us.
I believe one way to deepen our faith is to do what God has asked us to do, even when we think we are ill equipped to accomplish it. If we never take a risk and do something we are not equipped to handle, we will never understand the impact God can make through our lives.
The Apostle Paul wrote to Timothy; For God has not given us a spirit of fear and timidity, but of power, love, and self-discipline (2 Timothy 1:7; NLT). God wants us to step out in courage and in trust Him to equip us to accomplish the call He has placed on our lives.
When we shrink back from doing God's will because we feel inadequate we are in fact saying; “I don't trust God”. When we step out and embrace the adventure that is beyond our control we are declaring to the world; “Yes, I trust in God!”